||[Sep. 2nd, 2009|11:34 pm]
Obsession Compulsive Disorder...|
After talking about my dream to someone on DeviantArt and he asked me if I had any OCDs. I quickly shook my head no to the response, but I've been sitting around watching some YouTube videos about OCD and I'm starting to think I have one.
One thing I cannot stand is the sight of mold, mildew, and scum. Like every time I catch sight of it I feel like it's entering my chest and it's contaminating my body. I have shampoo bottles on the windowsill of the shower. The windowsill is covered with blackened mold and soap scum. I actually have to close my eyes or look away when grabbing the bottles to avoid looking at it. The very thought of it can prevent me from eating for a few moments. In fact, I was thinking about having a protein shake but the fact that the topic and sight is fresh in my memory I feel too disgusted to drink it right now.
How bout you? If you think about it long and hard can you say you have any OCDs? If so, what are they?
Mmm. In my college pysch class, the professor mentioned that we all have SOME tendencies like that. Washing your hands before a meal, insisting upon a straw at restaurants, etc.
It's when it interferes with your life that it gets problematic. Like, say, washing the skin off your hands or refusing to shower because you don't the mold to get you.
My OCD is needing to eat one thing on my plate at a time. "I CAN NOT EAT A BITE OF ONE AND THEN TRY ANOTHER, I MUST FINISH IT ALL ONE AT A TIME," sort of deal.
"It's when it interferes with your life that it gets problematic."
That is a VERY good point! I was beginning to think I'm bound to have some unforeseen future problems from this.
As for your eating habits... Are you one of those people who eats pizza by peeling off all the toppings and eating them by itself first and then having at the remains?
Nah, because like a casserole, a pizza stands by itself as a individual item, as opposed to something like mashed potatoes and green beans.
I can't leave the house without checking the stove to see if it is turned off.
Sometimes when I do leave the house, get in my car, and head out, and totally forget if I had seen if the stove is turned off, I'll actually drive back to the house and make sure the stove is turned off.
I've driven past Martinez, wondered if the stove is turned off, got so bugged that I went back home, just to check the stove, then when I was relieved it was off, I could go to Richmond.
Ya know! That is a really not that bad of a habit. One night I went to go warm up some tea low-medium heat. I went to go watch some tv and totally forgot about it. Hours later I was trying to sleep but couldn't. I swear I heard a noise in the kitchen and went to go check it out. It was nothing, but I noticed it sounded like the stove was on and realized the pot has been boiling for nearly 5 hours, luckily with water still in the pot.